#MillionsMissing 2019

 

It is #MillionsMissing 2019. I would love to write about new jewelry I’ve created or exotic places I’ve traveled, but I am still severely disabled by Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME or ME/CFS). The absurdity of protesting from a prone position, because sitting up for long can have frightening consequences, is an evil necessity in order to advocate for reasonable NIH research funding. And with ME, every normal activity can have grievous ramifications. It is a horrifying realization that mental activity triggers the same devastation as physical activity. Going to the doctor can result in being bedbound for days. Perhaps reading a book, watching tv, a visit from a friend or family or even showering will put me in a darkened room, submerged in cascading and terrifying symptoms and wondering if I will recover. On better days, by the time I get up, showered and dressed, I often need to go back to bed again. Will I be lucky enough this time not to suffer severe PEM (Post Exertion Malaise)? It is a cruel and devastating game of craps, only not with dice but with my health, wherein each throw can result in overwhelming catastrophic symptoms which can become permanent. Those of us with ME walk a knife’s edge every day, trying to determine what we can and cannot do. Push yourself too hard and you can become housebound or bedbound, sometimes for the rest of your life.

There’s so much I want to do, travel with my husband, enjoy spending time with my family, revive my jewelry business, go out to lunch with friends, paint, read a book in one sitting like I used to do. It is soul destroying to have the drive to achieve your goals but live in a body that punishes you for the smallest exertion.

ME affects up to 2.5 million people of all ages and socioeconomic groups in the United States alone, with over 80% of them women. This disease causes profound neurological, immunological and metabolic dysfunction, resulting in a level of debility that is on average equivalent to congestive heart failure or multiple sclerosis. Yet the NIH funding for research remains abysmally low, approximately $5 per patient. A similarly disabling disease such as multiple sclerosis receives about $242 per patient per year.

Please help by bringing attention to ME and demand the NIH allot funding for research, clinical trials and medical education commiserate with the burden of this disease. Donate to #MEAction Solve ME/CFS or the Open Medicine Foundation, organizations which include people with ME who risk their own health to raise awareness and funding, along with researchers and clinicians to accelerate the discovery of effective treatments, and ultimately, a cure. You can help amplify our voices.

I am a senior with ME.

I am a retired teacher with ME.

I am a wife, parent, and grandmother with ME.

I am a friend with ME.

I am an artist with ME.

I miss you all.

I am still here.

I am one of the #MillionsMissing.

There are protests taking place this week throughout the world. Find them here #MillionsMissing. Follow the hashtag #MillionsMissing and #CanYouSeeMEnow? on social media. Add your voice, be part of the solution. We can, all of us, make a difference.

“[ME/CFS patients] feel effectively the same every day as an AIDS patient feels two months before death; the only difference is that the symptoms can go on for never-ending decades.” —Prof. Mark Loveless, Head of the AIDS and ME/CFS Clinic at Oregon Health Sciences University

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Can You See M.E. Now?

Another year passes, and here I lay, on the couch or in bed, another one of the millions missing from participation in life due to myalgic encephalomyelitis. My family and friends must be tired of hearing about this relentless and insidious disease that robs me of my ability to have a normal life. But here’s the thing, I’m not alone. There are between 15 and 30 million people around the world with this disease.  We have been mislabeled with the disparaging name “chronic fatigue syndrome,” denigrated by the medical community, and ignored by governments who allot shamefully minuscule funding, or none at all, for research.

M.E. is invisible. “You don’t look sick” is a common and dismissive refrain. It is severely under and misdiagnosed. Ronald Davis, PhD, Professor of Biochemistry and Genetics at Stanford University calls it “one of the last major diseases we know nothing about”.

M.E. is real. Imagine being so ill you can’t take a short walk, leave the house for weeks, talk on the phone, read, or have a visitor. When you do, you experience debilitating symptoms for days and weeks afterward. This is M.E.

I am one of the Millions Missing.

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There are various things you can do to help. Sign this petition to Dr. Collins of the NIH and contact your congressional representatives to demand that the NIH grant appropriate levels of funding. A good place to start finding information would be MEAction.net. These are folks with ME who risk their own health to organise protests, start petitions, educate and inform politicians, the NIH, and more.

Educate yourselves and help spread awareness to those around you: Solve ME/CFS and Open Medicine Institute.

There are protests taking place this Saturday, May 12th, throughout the world. Find them here #MillionsMissing.

Follow the hashtag #MillionsMissing and #CanYouSeeMEnow? on social media to see what’s going on.

Watch Jen Brea’s fantastic TEDtalk here and movie Unrest.

Be a part of the solution.

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Change

This is what my much-loved work area looked like not long ago. Crammed full of paints, gemstones, findings, half-finished bracelets and necklaces and a plethora of tools to create jewelry of all kinds.

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Alas, I’ve come to grips with the reality that due to the severity of ME/CFS, it’s too difficult to make and market my jewelry; therefore, I’ve had to drastically cut back. If I am being honest, it’s something I will probably have to let go of completely. This is a tremendous loss as an avenue of creativity. With any chronic illness, you are forced to go through a continuous process of grief, for the unrelenting loss of one piece of your life after another. The contrast between what you were able to accomplish and the actuality of ones present circumstance is an ever widening chasm.

But, as one lovely young lady, Lucy Grove-Jones wrote in a wonderful post, It won’t be the same life I would have had if I’d never become sick, I know that….. because I will have a life. Just watch me. 

In that same vein, I’ve begun, slowly retiring my jewelry accoutrements and replacing them with watercolors and brushes. Here in my studio is a required tool for ME/CFS, the ubiquitous couch where much of my life is spent, resting to alleviate symptoms and hopefully, prevent further damage. Books and iPad are piled high, always with hopes that my brain fog is less intense that day so I can delve into them for a small period of time. My art table awaits, for the moments I can again revel in my paints and explore all the gorgeous hues.

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I have a life. It is a different kind of life, but it is mine to build anew.

If you would like to know more about ME/CFS, and to help build awareness, there’s great information MEAction and at Solve ME/CFS Initiative. And please check out Lucy’s delightful blog here!

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It’s Thursday!

Hi everyone! Just wanted to add a few recent pieces that I hadn’t displayed before. Have a wonderful day!

 

This is an antique French medallion. I love her delicate and exquisite face!
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Unrest on PBS

For those of you who are in the United States, Unrest will be coming to PBS on January 8th. This documentary is a glimpse inside one woman’s journey with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME), a misunderstood, misdiagnosed, pervasive and insidious disease.  It is a love story.  It is a story of strength.  It is a story of despair.  It is a story about the failure of the medical system to take seriously millions of people who suffer from ME.  It is a story of success, how one woman has managed to shine light into a little seen world.  Unrest has been shortlisted as one of the top 15 documentaries for the Oscars.

Please take the time to watch this vital documentary and let others know about it. Perhaps if enough people begin to ask questions, we can increase awareness and funding for research. Perhaps those of us who are invisible to the general populace will become visible. Unrest is a story of an often bedridden and invisible community, built on the simple principle that, although you may not see us, we are still here.

Hear us.  See us.  Be part of the solution.

I am still here.

 

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